this fog just follows me around...

...and it's only you that burns it away.

(I'm really digging the new Cartel album. Much more like their first and best album.)

I'm procrastinating...more. When I work Sundays, I allow myself some procrastination since I'll have Monday night for homework as well. Today I've been very unproductive but only on the homework front. I've been looking at DIY wedding ideas and have come up with some I might like to try. Of course, I need to present the ideas to Fiance but he pretty much lets me try the things I like. Although I was still shocked when the 'I like light colors" came out of nowhere. I had asked if he had color preferences and he said no, so I guess I can't be sure anymore. :-P

I'm overeager to see our engagement pictures. Although I'm not the only one, so maybe it's just normal eagerness.

I'm also trying to figure out how we only have 4 weeks of class left and then exam week. What's with that?

I'm excited for Thanksgiving... M&A will be back from NY and it shall be good times.

I wish I knew what was happening for Christmas break, but, alas, I can't get a hold of one of the busiest persons I've ever met, and I'm praying like CRAZY that the Idaho house will sell super soon since that would make everything a ton better.

On another note, I enjoyed adventuring up to Petoskey with the Grents this weekend. I had a nice relaxing visit with them. Also, even though TC and Petoskey and such are pretty and similar, I still prefer SW Michigan. I may be biased, but whatevs.

Ok, one hour left of homework time, then closing the lab down. Must get more homework done.

This was kind of random and jumbled, but oh wells.

xoxo

Five.

Five things you will find if you open my bag:
1. Camera.
2. Glasses.
3. Korres lipbalm.
4. Wallet.
5. Keys.

Five things in my bedroom:
1. Bed canopy.
2. Framed artwork.
3. My grand tour soldier bust.
4. Laundry that needs to be put away.
5. Paper galore.

Five things I’ve always wanted to do in my life:
1. Get married ;-)
2. Be known for being good at what I do.
3. Travel the world.
4. Photograph the world.
5. Have a happy life with my family.

Five things that make me very happy:
1. Spending time with my family.
2. Completing a to-do list.
3. A tasty meal ( I don’t have time for those) .
4. Dogs & puppies (especially mine).
5. Holidays and changing seasons.

Five things I’m currently into:
1. Attempting to regain a normal sleep cycle .
2. Planning a wedding.
3. Obtaining winter boots.
4. Drinking sweet tea galore.
5. Simplifying .

Five things on my To-Do list:
1. Get homework done in a non-procrastinating time period.
2. Take stuff out of my car so I can drop it off in the morning.
3. Put laundry away.
4. Figure out a Halloween costume.
5. Pick out outfits for Capitol Day and engagement photos.

Five things some people may or may not know about you:
1. I am very observant and analytical- I just keep it to myself.
2. I miss everyone. especially my family.
3. I care way too much about what people think of me.
4. I am very nostalgic.
5. I miss dancing.

Five most important moments of the last year:
1. Getting engaged to my high school sweetheart.
2. Getting an internship for the summer
3. Mom & Dad deciding to move to North Carolina.
4. Spending the summer away from my hometown.
5. Realizing this is it for the planned and known portion of my life

Five things I enjoy doing during my free time:
1. Watching movies and rewatching movies
2. Sleeping.
3. Random adventuring.
4. Taking pictures.
5. Reading books and magazines.

Five feelings I am feeling right now:
1. Exhaustion.
2. Procrastination
3. Concern.
4. Hope that the weather will be good on Thursday.
5. A little lonely.

Last five songs I played:
1. Falling For You.
2. Dark Blue.
3. Hurricane.
4. Paparazzi.
5. The Remedy.

Five people I have texted or called in the last twenty-four hours:
1. Alex.
2. Erika.
3. Autumn.
4. Mom.
5. Dad.

Five things I have on my body right now:
1. Jeans.
2. Undergarments.
3. Tank top.
4. Scarf.
5. Shoes that I shouldn’t be wearing.

Five things I would really like to learn.
1. To drive a stick shift.
2. A general working knowledge of things like engines and the stock market, haha.
3. Why teleportation isn’t invented yet.
4. How to wear my hair in different pretty ways.
5. More photography skills.

Five last things I have to say to five different people:
1. I wish I could be there to help you out again.
2. I miss you and worry about you constantly.
3. I wouldn’t change a thing and I can’t wait for forever.
4. I’m praying that this time, it’s perfect and makes you happy.
5. The 30 year plan is still a viable option, we’ll see how it goes.

100 Truths

Still bored in the CAD lab.

1. Last beverage: Sweet Tea
2. Last phone call: Erika
3. Last text message: Alex
4. Last song you listened to: Holly (Would You Turn Me On?) - All Time Low
5. Last time you cried: Last night.

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice? Um, sort of?
2. Been cheated on? No.
3. Kissed someone & regretted it? No.
4. Lost someone special? Yes.
5. Been depressed? Yes.
6. Been drunk and threw up? Nope!

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Blue
2. Green
3. Purple
4. White

HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends: Yes
2. Fallen out of love: Yes
3. Laughed until you cried: Yes
4. Met someone who changed you: Yes
5. Found out who your true friends were: Yes
6. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes, grr.
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yes
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? Most.
9. How many kids do you want to have: 2
10. Do you have any pets? Yes, jackDog
11. Do you want to change your name? Nope.
12. What did you do for your last birthday? Had an outdoor dinner party. :-D
13. What time did you wake up today? 8:00
14. What were you doing at midnight last night? On the phone with a drunk person.
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for: My internship search to be over.
16. Last time you saw your father? December. :-/
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Distances
18. What are you listening to right now? People chattering in the CAD lab.
19. Have you ever talked to a person named nothing? No. What?
24. Most visited webpage? Webmail.

About me?
1. What's your name: Holly Christine Winter
2. Nicknames: Hocks, Angel Face, HMG, Bubbles, Silks, Seester, Hoho, Holly Dolly, Sweetheart
3. Relationship Status: Taken
4. Zodiac sign: Gemini
5. Male or female: Female
6. Elementary: Stewart School
7. Middle School: Lakeshore Middle School
8. High school: Lakeshore High School
10. Hair color: Currently? Weird light brown/red.
11. Long or short: Getting back to medium (which is as long as it will go)
16. Height: 5'5"
17. Do you have a crush on someone? Mhm.
18: What do you like about yourself? Um, I don't know. Weird.
19. Piercings: Ears: firsts, seconds, and a third and cartilage in the left
20. Tattoos: 'W' on my inner right forearm
21. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :
22. First surgery: Wiseom Tooth
23. First piercing: Ears- 3 days before I turned 5
24. First best friend: Erika
26. First sport you joined: Soccer
27. First pet: Onyx
28. First vacation: Myrtle Beach?
29. First concert: The Gin Blossoms
30. First crush: Tim?

RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating: Nothing
50. Drinking: Sweet Tea
51. Doing: This.
52. I'm about to: get up and walk down the hall and back because I've been sitting for almost 4 hours.
53. Listening to: Project discussions in the CAD lab.
55. Waiting for: 9:45.

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? Yes, two girls.
59. Want to get married?Yes.
60. Careers in mind? Interior Designer, of course.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. Lips or eyes: Eyes.
69. Hugs or kisses: Both.
70. Shorter or taller: Taller than me.
71. Older or Younger: Not what matters.
72. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
73. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both, but not too muscular.
74. Sensitive or loud: Both.
75. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
77. Trouble maker or hesitant: Probably trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER:
78. Kissed a stranger: No
79. Drank hard liquor: Yes.
80. glasses/contacts: Glasses since 2nd grade, hard contacts since 7th
81. Sex on first date: Um, no.
82. Broken someone's heart: I don't think so.
83. Had your own heart broken: Yes
85. Been arrested: No
86. Turned someone down: No, never asked, haha.
87. Cried when someone died: Yes.
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? As a friend.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself: Not always.
90. Miracles: Sometimes
91. Love at first sight: No
92. Heaven: Yes
93. Santa Clause: "In your mind it's Santa Clause, but in your mind it's Mom and Dad."
95. Kiss on the first date? No.
96. Angels: Sometimes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? 3, in fact, and a dog.
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? No
99. Wish you could take back something that you did? Yeah.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? I suppose.

Bored in the CAD lab.

TWENTY WHAT’S:

[1] What hair color would you like to have?
My newly natural dark ash blonde.

[2] What is your middle name?
Christine

[3] What is your current relationship status?
Taken

[4] What makes you happy?
Warm weather, spring flowers, being with freinds

[5] What is your current mood?
Eh, kind of down.

[6] What color underwear are you wearing?
White

[7] What is your eye color?
Blue

[8] What song is stuck in your head?
A combo of three songs. (lovely, right?)

9] What are you eating/drinking at the moment?
Sweet Tea

[10] What color are your bed sheets?
Solid white with mulitcolor stripes

[11] What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
9509

[12] What is the most important part of your life?
Family (and friends)

[13] What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
A nap or talking to my Mom

[14] What should you be doing?
Working on one of two projects in AutoCAD

[15] What is the wallpaper on your cell phone?
Chicago at night.

[16] What were you doing at 8 a.m. this morning?
Trying to wake up

[17] What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Working in AutoCAD

[18] What is the best ice cream flavor?
Mint Chocolate Chip

[19} What are you wearing right now?
Tank top, cardigan, jeans, chucks.

[20] What is your birthstone?
Emerald

FIVE WHERE’S:

[21] Where is your profile picture taken?
Outside

[22] Where are you right now?
I.D. CAD lab

[23 ]where is your favorite vacation spot?
Visiting my parents in Idaho

[24] Where is one place you want to visit before you die?
Greece

[25] Where were you born?
Mercy Memorial in Saint Joseph

THIRTY DO’S:

[26] Do you act differently around your crush?
Mm, no.

[27] Do you speak any other language?
Spanish, but it's fading.

[28] Do you still watch kiddy tv shows?
No, sadly.

[29] Do you like to travel by plane?.
Yes- you can get to Idaho in a day.

[30] Do you know the muffin man?
I wish!

[31] Do you hate anyone right now?
No.

[32] Do you ever wish you were someone else?
Not very often.

[33] Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
Yes.

[34] Do you celebrate your half birthday?
I remember it, but no celebrations.

[35] Do you think you are a good person?
I try my best.

[36] Do you have a tan line?
No, I don't even have a tan.

[37] Do you eat healthy?
Sometimes.

[38] Do you like someone right now?
Mhm.

[39] Do you have a dog?
Yes, Jackson.

[40] Do you have plans tonight?
Work til 10, then relaxing before bed.

[41] Do you have any friends on Facebook you hate?
No.

[42] Do you miss your past?
Very much so. I'm too nostalgic.

[43] Do you want children?
Yes.

[44] Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
Depends on the situation.

[45] Do you try to blend in with the crowd, or prefer to stand out?
Depends on my mood.

[46] Do you have any old calendars in your room?
In some boxes.

[47] Do you miss anyone?
My family, every minute of every day.

[48] Do you play an instrument?
Yes- oboe, piano, flute.

[49] Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
Not too much.

[50] Do you like the snow?
During the Winter.

[51] Do you need to pee?
Nope.

[52] Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Yes.

[53] Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
Regular. Any type.

54] Do you get nervous in front of crowds?
A little.

[55] Do you get good grades?
Yes.

FIVE IF’S:

[56] If you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
Oh, probably a fox. :-P

[57] If you could have one superpower what would it be?
Well, since I was a superhero for Halloween... I could fly and use winter powers.

[58] If you could cheat on a test, would you?
No, the other person would have worse answers, haha.

[59] If you could have one wish, what would it be for?
Either to find an awesome internship or the ability to teleport.

[60] If you could go back in time and change the past, would you?
No, not really. Small things only.

TEN HAVE’S:

[61] Have you ever had a near death experience?
No.

[62] Have you ever fired a gun?
Definately not. ( I like to toss around rifles though.)

[63] Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Yes.

[64] Have you ever been out of the country?
Yup.

[65] Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
For sure.

[66] Have you felt sad in the past week?
Very much so.

[67] Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
Unfortunately, yes.

[68] Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
Yes.

[69] Have you ever completely flunked a test?
Um, no.

[70] Have you ever gotten a detention?
Yes, sixth grade choir. I was so pissed.

FIFTEEN MISCELLANEOUS:

[71] Why did you get a facebook?
Erika sent me the link in high school.

[72] Why did your parents give you the name you have?
Because they changed their mind from Molly at the last minute.

[73] Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
Yes.

[74] Are you any good at math?
Yes, the math I know.

[75] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Sarah M

[76] Name someone who made you smile today?
Autumn

[77] Name something you don’t leave the house without?
Phone, camera, iPod, wallet, etc.

[78] Name the person that you have been friends with the longest?
Erika. :-P

[80] Does the future scare you?
It didn't used to, but now: YES.

[81] Does your crush like you back?
Hm. I think so.

[82] How did u get one of your scars?
Um, chopping a portion of my thumb out with an x-acto knife...

[83] Are you a morning person or a night person?
Evening.

[84] Is your phone close to you?
About 6 inches from my left hand.

[85] Can you curl your tongue?
In what way?

FIFTEEN THE LAST…:

[86] the person you hugged?
Alex.

[88] Person you talked to on the phone?
Erika.

[90] Person you kissed?
This kid named Alex.

[91] Person you sent a comment/message on facebook?
Autumn

[92] Song you listened to?
Holly (Would you turn me on?) -All Time Low

[93] Time you cried?
Last night.

[94] Time you were on a plane?
Last August.

[95] Person you said “I love you” to?
Alex.

[96] Place you went out to eat?
Non fast food- The Cabin.

[97] Person who worried about you?
Mom.

[98] Time you were told you were beautiful/handsome/good looking?
Actually, last night.

[99] Time you were sick?
Currently so, and have been for too long now.

[100] Thing you drank?
Sweet Tea.

[101] Thing you ate?
Haven't we been over this already?

Also, where did 87 go?

I have been through WAY too much for these pearly whites.

So, the other day I realized I hadn’t blogged in a while. This morning, while lying in the dentist’s chair, I thought about all these things at the dentist. So, that’s what I shall talk about. First off, dentists and their hygienists usually tell me I have nice teeth. I didn’t whiten my teeth this fall like I have the past two years and there was some plaque buildup I don’t normally have- I believe from those five days or so where I couldn’t brush my teeth after getting my wisdom tooth out. But, so, I was rather taken aback when the dental hygienist asked if I was a smoker. I replied, no. Then she asked if I drink a lot of pop or coffee, and I was like, not much… Then she proceeds to tell me that she’s going to use this high powered water device that most people really like, over using the tools to get plaque off, because it’s faster and will help get those stains off. What stains?! The water tool made a high pitched whiney sound and frankly, I prefer the tools, which she still used for a bit anyway. After having braces twice, and with Dr. Wrench, I much prefer being able to FEEL someone get my teeth clean than for them to poke around in my mouth for a half hour and have me feel nothing. It’s not like I like pain, I had enough of that from the braces, but I don’t care if people work with my teeth and I want to know they’re doing their job. Now, keep in mind that I chose this Dentist office because it was listed on our insurance’s website and it had a nice family friendly add in the yellow pages. Walking in, it smelled like an old house. Not to be rude, but if your house has that stereotypical layering of old smells, do something about it. I will judge you. But, the people were nice enough. I warmed up to the hygienist after she stopped chatting about my supposed stains and we moved on to the subject of braces. I also enlightened her on what interior design really was. She thought it was another 4 year degree for picking out furnishings and colors and she actually asked if we were the ones who painted and such. I let her know what we really do, and she was taken aback and said, that, yes, it sounds closer to architecture. Anyways, the point I was trying to get to was the dentist, Mr. Serious Nose Hair. He sits down and asks the hygienist what’s going on here, and she, confused, asks what he means, and he replies, aren’t we doing an LOE? Now, I don’t know what that is, but I’m fairly certain I don’t want one if I don’t need one, but fortunately the hygienist said no, and he realized he misread it on my chart. First impression: wonderful, this man can’t even read right. He attempted to chatter with me a bit, but really, just seemed slow. His exam of my teeth was the quickest EVER. I’m glad my insurance paid for a one minute exam that cost as much as my half hour cleaning. But, so, the fellow seems a bit doddering, and really, had nostrils packed full of white hair. Seriously disturbing. I felt like I had to cater my answers to him, and then I felt bad for the hygienist- does she have to talk to him like that all the time? Despite this, I made an appointment to come back in October. I figured getting 2 more cleanings there wouldn’t kill me, and then I’ll be moving far from Mount Pleasant, good god hopefully, and will find another dentist. I was so used to the one back home and the own in IF was so nice and happy, that it was just a strange experience. My teeth, however, look satisfactory, and they did give me a high quality toothbrush- score! Well, I’m sure that’s all of my dentist ramblings anyone can handle, so ttfn.

I'm dreaming in Photoshop.

Good god. I can't focus on anything besides a computer screen since that's what I've been staring at for the past 5 days. But I'm done. My portfolio is printed and waiting at Kopy Korner to be picked up and bound. Alleluia.

Since I've been working on nothing but my portfolio since last week I am now behind in the other miscellaneous tasks I need to get done. So, tonight I have to study for my Religion 101 Hinduism test and highlight Codes stuff. Tomorrow is going to be ridiculous. Getting up early to go get my resume, then CAD, Religion test, lunch, Codes, LAST INTERN PREP, out to dinner with the roomies for Sarah's birthday (which is today), then Phi Kappa Tau plays in the Intermural IFC indoor soccer championship. Their last game was amazing, but I'm nervous for this one. It's the guys with the orange shorts who were the only ones to beat them during the regular season. I shall wear my sweetheart sweatshirt and be an excellent cheerleader no matter what happens.

I can't wait to visit Pookie Pie in PGH this weekend. Although, I'm really starting to panic about internships and being in PGH without interviews might send me over the edge. But, we have fun activities planned and I just need some time with a member of the family. I got really sad last night when I re-realized I won't see the parents til August again. I hated that last year. 8 months is just way too long. I miss them SO much.

Ok, I'm rambling and procrastinating. Must go finish reading religion and read over the notes.

Ch-ch-ch-changes

Why, hello.

Pookie's been pressuring me, so here is my blog.
I've actually been keeping a journal consistently since November, so I have the confidence that I can keep this up as well. I do not, however, have the mindset to write right now. Sorry Pookie Pie. I promise I will later.